It feels so good to be taking a moment. A moment away from work, from commuting, from worrying about work and commuting. My job has taken up so much space in my life lately it has left me feeling drained and sad and off center. I have had feelings of self-doubt, self-loathing, fear, all of which add up to bad choices and negativity. i am not blaming everything on stress from work but i certainly know it plays a part. When i start to feel like i am not able to hold up my end of service and submission i doubt my worth and when i fall down that particular rabbit hole the results are not good. That is, at least partly, why this vacation is well timed. The Pretty Lady and i need time to connect and talk and heal some of the tender spots and i need time to unwind the tight bands of tension that are wrapped around me right now.
i am looking forward to the time, the moments that are to come this week. i am looking forward to walking down the streets of the city and seeing new places and new things. i am looking forward to the things i can’t even guess are going to happen and i am looking forward to time alone with the Pretty Lady…time to connect…
i am looking forward to time to run my hands over her skin and smooth tension from tired muscles…to focusing on her…on her body. i can feel a touch of shyness as i write about wanting her…i want her skin under my strong hands…i want to feel her body relax until she is open to me…i want to press strong fingers into her muscles and then into her cunt…i want to take her…i want to fuck her…i even want to slip some sharp shiny needles under her skin and make her bleed…i rest assured in the knowledge that if she does not want these things she will tell me but for now i am just expressing my wants…my desire…i sometimes hesitate to do this and this seems a time where i should not hesitate…i should step up and reach for what i want…i will step up and use my strong hands and my hard cock and my body and let her feel how much i desire her…how much i want her…
i want those moments this week…i want the moments where i take her and let her feel me…i want to cum inside of her and feel her cum hard around me…i want…i want that connection…and now i let that want sit hot and low inside of me and i embrace it and love it and love myself and love her and offer my desire up to the universe…